I Am a Horrible Friend

If I could remember the
Last time you lost me
I might not be so apt
To wander into your
Cavernous glances again.

That recharge you pretend,
Your sunshine regeneration,
Is but a lie, and I break every time.

Stay that concept for me,
Let me scrounge around in
These shadows daydreaming
That there is perfect someplace.

Let me pretend not to be so
Pathetic and perhaps I'll learn
To let this pipedream down
The drain, finally and forever.

But only by ignoring it.

I am a horrible friend.